How Covid-19 affected my family
I can't believe summer is nearing it's end! Where has the time gone. 2020 has got to be the weirdest year I've ever experienced. I'm at the point where nothing would surprise me. I feel like staying up on New Years 2019 was such a waste! lol I'm honestly just waiting for the next crazy thing to happen. We all have stories about how Covid-19 affected us personally or someone close to us. I know that losing someone to Covid-19 is the worst thing that could ever happen. We lost a family friend just a few weeks ago to Covid-19. I want to offer my sincerest condolences to every family that lost someone to this terrible disease.
I started my own massage spa business two weeks before Corona hit the US. Talk about bad luck! I opened Feb 29, 2020 which was a leap year. I thought that was a good sign but now I think it was a bad omen. Two weeks after opening the nation shut down for a month. I briefly reopened for a week and decided to close for good. It was such a hard decision but I knew I had no other choice, no body wanted to be touched and that was literally my job! It was a difficult time for me and my husband, we had invested so much energy, emotion, and finances to this business only to have it go belly up over something I had zero control over! March feels like a life time ago. Honestly the sadness and anger over losing my business before it really had a chance to even start has subsided and now I feel optimistic for the future and maybe, God willing, I will try again when there isn't a pandemic looming.
I know there are thousands of people who went through similar if not worse situations then me. People who lost everything. It's so hard to feel this helpless and small, having no control over your life. I have been on this planet for just under four decades and I have never experienced anything so insane. It made me think about my children and their future. I want a better world for them. A safer world. A eight year old shouldn't fear touching another person or having their schooling disrupted where they couldn't even say good bye to their classmates and teachers. Five months into this pandemic we now refer to events pre mask and post mask. lol. It's funny how not funny this whole thing is. Making light of everything that's happening around us, makes it easier to process our new "normal".
August is when we usually buy school supplies and get back to our school routine. Not in 2020! Now we as parents get to agonize over whether we should send our children to school or have them be home bound for a year. Some parents don't even have that option which makes it so much more stressful. So here we are, at the end of summer with no hope of this pandemic going away any time soon. With the end of summer comes the fall flu season. That should be eventful. I got my hair cut the other day and the hair stylist said she wants to get Covid just to get it over with already! She was joking of course, I hope :) But I feel like that's the consensus, everyone is just over it! We had to miss my sons birthday party this year, we didn't take a vacation, and we are like hermits hiding in our house for months on end. Being shut up at home 24/7 can be depressing for sure but we have tried to use this time to get closer to each other and to God. We play board games, walk around the neighborhood when its not a millions degrees out, we have family prayers, we try to cook together. There are days that we don't do any of the above and are just crabby but those days are few. As hard as everything is I try to hold on to my faith. I drink in hope like coffee every morning because on days that I don't I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. The news channels do their best to make sure you have very little to be happy and hopeful about. There is death and destruction. Fear and anxiety. Standing on Gods promises and choosing His light over the darkness all around me takes effort. It's so easy to give in to the quick sand and let negative thoughts in. Thinking "What's the point? Nothings ever going to change, everything will only get worse" ... is destructive, negative thoughts tend to snow ball out of control until you can't
get out of your bed in the morning due to the doom and gloom of your thoughts. Romans 12:2 (ESV) says "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." I want to be a beacon of hope for you even if you don't have any of your own. I pray that this season of unrest be the most restful and peaceful for you and your family. That anxiety and fear would flee your mind. I speak hope over you, such a hope that no darkness can ever quench! We will all get through this together, through Love and hope. If you want me to pray for you and your family let me know and we can stand in faith together. Blessings!!